You're Starting to Regress

I don't understand what made you change so much.
How you became so mean, so careless, so normal.
You were someone with so much soul. I saw it in you.
But I'm starting to change my mind about you.
I know why she liked you so much, and why now she fucking hates you to the core.
I couldn't support that more.

I called you one of the best, but now you're just like the rest.
Bland, hurtful, and egotistical.

B.K. is the only one of my friends who's ego is okay, because he's always been that way, and I've accepted it, and seen past it.
But you, you're turning into an ungrateful piece of shit.
I hope karma serves you justice.

At this rate, you've got none of my respect.
I called you out, it's the only reason you're so defensive.
Stop abusing my best friend, or I swear I'll put you right in your place.

Only Ashes

Incinerate whats left of this,
And torch the part of me that's you.
Fire's a beautiful sound.
We're only ashes.

I haven't been using my time wisely, apparently.
I haven't been the same, apparently.



I've been putting my best friend on the back burner.
I haven't been prioritizing.
I became obsessive.
I became sad.
I became lonely.

I don't really understand why I've been this way.
Maybe I am different.
Maybe I'm two-headed.
Maybe I hate college.

I wish someone was here when I lost my brain.

Most of The Time, I Love This Fucking Town. Most of The Time, I Hate All of You Fucking Bitches.

This is to all of the girls on the 4th floor of my dorm building with the exception of Jen May, Becca, and that Joanna girl who has snakebites...

FUCK YOU.
You ignorant bitches aren't shit.
Take all of your conservative, close-minded views and comments back to where you came from. You don't belong here.
You're all ugly on the inside anyway.

And most of you on the outside as well.

College Girl

I miss you Mom.
I miss you Dad.
I miss you, Serena. You're so beautiful.
I miss you Joe. I don't know what I'd do without you.
I miss you Shannon. My rock, my love.
I miss you Taylor.
I miss you Trent.
I miss you Demi. You'd love it here.
I miss you Lejla, even though you don't miss me.

I miss home. This doesn't feel like home.
I don't need anyone to walk by my side, I just want it.
It hurts knowing you're so far away.

I miss you.

4 Days and Counting

I have no real friends here.
You see people everyday who consistently say hello, and smile, but want nothing more.
This town has few, but a few friendly people. It's comforting to sense how happy they truly are with the simplicity of their lives. I wish I could appreciate life like that a little bit more.
I'm stuck in my own mind.
I'm lonely.
I'm in another drone of normalcy.


I hope KTRM calls me. It would make the days go by faster. And who knows, maybe it will be something I'll learn to love like I love my hometown.
My items are expendable, but the relationships I acquired this summer are not. I miss you people in the highest sense.
This campus is such a peaceful place...

Sometimes, that's the worst place for a thinker like me.

I want to lose my mind, just so I don't have to feel this way again.

"If It Means a Lot To You"

I've been so busy these past few days-to the point where I almost seem to forget my priorities.
It's overwhelming to know what is to come in my direction these next few months. I want to taste you one more time again.
It's comforting to know that you support me, and miss me... But it's just not the same as being able to feel it physically.
I miss you and your entirety. I try not to let myself show you, because deep down, I'm so happy, but surfacing are only thoughts of loneliness. Some of this may not make sense at all to you, but I know you'd get it eventually.

Beard or no beard, I still want you. All of you.
I had this notion that you'd make me forget the world.
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes to a whole world that's since been in disguise.
I had a feeling that those looks you gave me were real.
The truth is, I've never fallen so hard.
I don't feel right leaving you.
You've taught me a lot about myself and you don't even realize it. You're the one person I'm myself around; at all moments.
"If you can wait till I get home, then I swear to you that we can make this last."

I knew at the moment I met you, and yet again when I walked through the doors of this new environment that I would truly find who I am.

I watched the sun set today. It was so beautiful outside. I hoped you'd see it too.
I'd bottle up your soft, dream-like scent.
You give me confidence to stare, and observe. You don't come across people like us often.
If I could sleep forever, would you still be in my dreams?
--Under the covers


As I walked the cobblestone walkways of this campus under the sun today in my pink shades, I came to the realization that I wished you could experience this with me...