Today, I reached into the shitter and saw the inmost part of me.
My reflection has looked better, but never clean.

Stop telling me that I didn't care about "us."
Remeber when you told me that I was different? I am. Therefore you shouldnt expect me to be clingy, to be an annoyance, to be a machine. I'm independent. Get that through your shallow fucking brain. Just because I was busy, or doing something with my time doesn't validate that I was careless.
You obviously didnt know me.
Oh, now you're mad? Aww, I was never supposed to see this side of you.
Guess what? You don't even know what mad is until you've lived inside a body that is constantly filled with rage.

I know what it's like to not get what you want. Everybody does. Get used to it.




I felt bad for awhile, but now I'll go ahead and smile...

Watch me

Step back, take a look at my life.

I've seen the free that you enslave,
The walking that you keep chained,
I've seen the growth that you keep caged...
The machinist. I am not. I am not. I am not a machine.
I am human being.

Hold

I once sat up on my roof and examined the planning of my town.

I saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass
and I remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.

I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us
rolling around down along the ground.

I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads.
But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me.

I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need
and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place
and how shitty this town would seem without you in it.

When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out
all the sun's light and make myself feel all right.

What am I doing with my life?

Remember that the only things we need sometimes
are chilly nights and warmer thighs, 'cause there's nothing like being held.

Were your eyes too tired?

Just let me run where I want to run
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.

There are no rules for this love.
Just keep your head and don't give up.
Like all the fools who play it smart.
Lose your head just for your heart
Just for your heart...

I've spilt the beans.
I said too much.
I let it all out.

You're overwhelmed.
You're standoffish.

I think i'm close to fine

I've done it again.